If at first you don't succeed...

Ok, I failed miserably at not smoking. So badly, in fact, that I am almost back up to a pack a day. But I am going to give it the old college try one more time. I have like 3 cigarettes left and I am going to try really really really really hard not to buy anymore. With smokes at over $3 a pack and gas pretty damn close to that, I really need to stop. At $3 a pack and a pack a day, that's about $90 a month...Dang, I could finance that Hawaii trip in about 1000 years. But seriously, I have to stop. My friend and I started walking last week, and we plan to continue to do so at least 3 nights a week. We are walking 2 miles a night. But, my point was going to be that I knew that I was in bad shape, but I thought I was going to die after the first night. I was breathing so hard, you would have thought I had just ran a marathon instead of just walking a couple of miles. Wish me luck and I'll keep you posted.
Spent some time with my sweet little Indian friend Friday night. Probably won't see him for 3 weeks. He leaves for India on Thursday morning and I won't be able to get away to spend any time with him before that. I am going to miss him so bad. I found out this morning (Saturday) just how racist my father is. I knew he had issues but I truly had no idea until this morning when I was getting ready to leave for work and we had a huge argument about me dating an Indian man. He threatened me and told me that I better never plan on bringing him into this house and all this shit and how in the hell could I possibly be dating a "raghead". That totally pissed me off. First of all, he is Indian, not Iraqi or where the hell ever those people come from. He just proved to me what an ignorant asshole he can be sometimes. Second, I am 32 fucking years old. Last time I checked, adulthood struck at 18. Which means that I have been able to make my own choices, whether they are good or bad, for 14 years. Third, and this is that best one of all, HE TREATS ME BETTER THEN ANY WHITE MAN HAS IN A LONG GODDAMN TIME!!!! So, WTF? I just don't get people. But I'm sure that his family would probably do the same thing if they knew he had been dating a white woman. It still pisses me off though. I have tried my best to raise my daughter to not judge people based on their race or religion and I hate the fact that she lives under the same roof with someone who is so fucking narrow-minded that they can't see past the end of their nose. Ok, I'm getting off my soapbox now.
I am so tired right now. My legs have ached for the last couple of days, from all the walking that I have been doing. I know that once I get used to it, it will be alright, but it sure hurts right now. And it really doesn't help the insomnia much either when every time I find a comfortable position and I go to roll over, my hip screams in agony, or my knees start crying. I hope it goes away soon.
Took Drama Queen summer clothes shopping tonight. Spent way to damn much money. Got some really good deals, though...Won't tell you how much I spent, but I SAVED $192. Everything she picked out was on sale and for the amount of money that I spent, she really did get a lot of stuff. Barring a MAJOR growth spurt in the next few months, I shouldn't have to buy her anything else until time to go back to school in the fall.
Well, might not be back for a few days. Inventory tomorrow night at the store and no day off until next weekend, so who knows when I will feel like sitting down here again. Not that anyone really cares...