Fate...

Have you ever met someone and knew from the very first moment that you saw them/talked to them/touched them that they were going to be a very important part of your life in some way? How can you know so little about someone and just know that they are going to play an important role in your future? I spent the afternoon/evening with my new guy friend yesterday. We have spent several hours talking on the phone and I could kinda tell that he was a pretty special person and I was eagerly looking forward to getting to know him better and seeing where things would go, but I was also being cautious because the last thing I need right now is another serious relationship that is doomed to fail because I let it move too fast. We decided to get together yesterday and things went very well. He's a very sweet guy and he was a total gentleman the whole time. We went for a walk in this cute little park (in between rainstorms) and he asked me if he could hold my hand while we walked and he opened my car door and stuff like that...Very nice guy. And he's got a great smile that just lights up his whole face...Beautiful eyes, too...One of the first things I notice about someone is their eyes. He is funny and charming and he makes me laugh. I know, I know, I've said that about other guys before, but this time was actually different. Seriously, it was. I have become quite the cynic lately...I expect people to let me down anymore, that way I won't be so disappointed when they do. But this was different...I went to meet him thinking that he was gonna be completely different than the guy I had been talking to on the phone and he wasn't at all. He says nice things to me all the time and he is just an all-around nice guy. So, I guess we will see. I'd like to think that I deserve a little happiness, but I know better than that. I'm sure I will screw this up somehow.
The Ex and I had a nice talk this morning. He admitted that he gets jealous of me spending time with other men. I feel bad but at the same time, I have given him every opportunity to work things out with me and he has refused to even consider it, so I guess the time came for me to accept it and move on. I knew this was going to happen...As soon as I find someone that might actually make me happy, he starts coming around. I swear, I'm not gonna let him get to me though...Not this time. I could be wrong, but I think the thought of someone taking his place in Drama Queen's life is more of a threat to him than anything.
Everything happens for a reason. I met Jimmie for a reason...I'm just not sure what that reason is just yet. I'll keep ya'll posted though...No need to watch soap operas...Just visit here!