Someone please turn that shit off...

I really have to stop listening to sappy, sad love songs. I actually thought things were getting a little better, and for once in my life, things might actually be going my way, and then I spend the morning listening to songs about broken hearts and shattered lives and that totally ruins my mood for the rest of the day. One of these days I will get a grip and know better than to listen to that shit, especially when it's already rainy and gloomy outside.
My little Indian man came home Saturday. I was so excited to hear his voice on the phone that I almost cried. I didn't want to push him into seeing me because I knew that he was coming off a 22 hour flight, not to mention the 3 hours drive to the airport in India, and the 4 hour drive home from the airport. Turns out I didn't have to because, even though I tried to protest (a little!), he kept insisting on seeing me that night. I got there around 8 and we hung out for a little while and he feel asleep on me 3 times in 2 hours, so I finally put him to bed around 10:30 and came home. It was really nice seeing him and spending some time with him, after 2 weeks, but something wasn't right. I missed him terribly bad and he kept telling me how glad he was to be home and to be with me, but I just wasn't feeling it like I was before. I don't know, maybe it has something to do with it being close to "that time of the month" and all, but I'm not so sure. Yesterday, I spent some quality time with Drama Queen, since it was Mother's Day and all, and we went to a cookout for my grandma last night, but I still can't shake this lonely feeling. Why is it that when you are surrounded by people that love you and care about you, you generally feel the most alone? I tried talking to someone about this today and they looked at me like I was completely insane. Who knows, maybe I am. If someone could explain this to me, I would be eternally grateful. All I know right now is that it is freezing in my room and I need to go to bed. I've actually been sleeping about 4-5 hours a night, which may not seem like much, but for me, it's fantastic, so that isn't the reason for my mood either. Go figure...